This week has absolutely flown by and I can’t believe we’re already half way through the course! It’s bittersweet because as much as I am excited to continue expanding my knowledge and learning, I’m also going to be so sad to leave. Not only leave the beautiful Patnam beach, but also Kranti Yoga and everyone I have met and spent so much time with.
Yesterday we had a visit and talk from the Hare Krishnas, who come to Kranti three times during the length of our course – once at the start, halfway through and finally when we graduate. The first time they came we were all such strangers to one another, but after yesterday’s visit it was beautiful to see how much closer we have all become in such a short space of time. I feel like I’ve known the others for years and there is such a sense of familiarity between all of us.
For our last practice of the week – Yin Yoga – we all squeezed into the ocean shala (all 23 of us) meaning our mats were less than a hands distance apart! It was super cosy but I could just feel how positive and full of love our collective energy was. There couldn’t have been a more beautiful way to end the week and Yin Yoga really brought out some powerful personal emotions about being here and experiencing the YTTC with this amazing group of people. I really believe that a higher force has brought us all together to experience this journey, and I couldn’t be more thankful.
This week has also seen me face some challenges with my personal practice and I’ve had to take an even bigger step back from last week. After three days of Ashtanga practice my wrists were in absolute agony. In the Ashtanga primary series, there is a total of 60 vinyasas (a particular flow done to reset the body and breath), and I think my wrists took a bit of a beating. I realised that the best thing to do was to take care of my body, rather than feed my ego.
One particular intention from a morning class stuck with me this week and continuously reminded me to stay grounded in practice. It was ‘santosha’ which means being content with where I am in the present moment. I manifested it every time I stepped onto my mat and I’m starting to regain my once positive attitude towards yoga. It truly feels like a weight has been lifted from my shoulders.
Leading on from this, we started the Yoga Lifestyle and Philosophy module this week and our teacher shared such a beautiful poem with us at the end of one class that I couldn’t resist sharing it:
Watch the waves in an ocean. The higher the wave goes, the deeper is the wake that follows it. One moment you are the wave, another moment you are the hollow wake that follows. Enjoy both – don’t get addicted to one. Don’t say: “I would always like to be on the peak”. It is not possible. Simply see the fact: it is not possible. It has never happened and it will never happen. It is simply impossible – not in the nature of things.
Then what to do? Enjoy the peak while it lasts and then enjoy the valley when it comes. What is wrong with the valley? What is wrong with being low? It is a relaxation. A peak is an excitement, and nobody can exist continuously in an excitement.
It really effected me because for so long I have withheld myself from my practice due to this fear of falling into the hollow wake. I have always wanted to remain on the peak, but it is an impossibility that I’m only now starting to come to terms with. Of course there will be days where my practice feels weak, but there will also be days of elation. It is perfectly acceptable to experience both, so long as I remain content. Santosha.
I’ve has such a relaxing day off and it has allowed me to catch up with bits and bobs before heading into another busy and intense week. I’m looking forward to welcoming this week with a rested body, mind and soul – especially after my deep tissue massage tomorrow evening!